| I can live with this |
[Jul. 12th, 2006|10:42 pm] |
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| You Are A Fig Tree | 
You are very independent and strong minded.
A hard worker when you want to be, you play hard too.
You are honest and loyal. You hate contradiction or arguments.
You love life, and you live for your friends, children, and animals.
A great sense of humor, artistic talent, and intelligence are all gifts you possess. |
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| Flying into the Whirlwind |
[Jun. 6th, 2006|11:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lost in the moment | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Vicarious” Tool | ] |
Yesterday the whirl in my head stopped. I felt calm, relaxed and like everything was alright. I went to the Doctor and found out my cholesterol is still high. It was 211 total, HDL 143, LDL 35, so I get to take the wonderful meds to control it. On the up side I get to eat some real food. The Doc did not think that I looked great and made the wonderful ooo yuk face when I explained how it felt went I have been working out. I got the tile for the bathroom counter cut out last night. We even went to the Roadhouse for dinner. Everything seemed calm and relaxing.
I can into work this morning and was ready to have another ok day. First off I get pulled into a conference room and offer to have what used to be my job back. Now this in and of it’s self is great but this is motivated by the fact that the person they have had doing the job can’t it. We lost a server yesterday and she had no clue where to start to even try to fix it. My team lead, JJ, was the one who fixed the thing. What is concerned about is that when pointed out a fix, the response was “what is that? How would that fix it?” The first thought would be send her to training but she has been twice. With a version migration on the horizon JJ wanted some one who could at least understand the software. Now the one thing that could hold all this back is that our boss has a different plan for me. He wants to put in a position that is not vacant yet. The job is working with the routing, switching, the network which I find to be very boring and easier then most of the rest of the team, and the boss, make it to be. Once you get past the all the Cisco jargon it is fairly straight forward. So I am sitting in the Network team meeting today and everyone seemed to chasing their tail. The boss just was look for some to say what you are prosing is great, it the best way to do it, but the decisions he is making are based in the fear that something bad could happen. News flash we work in IT at any moment something bad could happen. So I get out of the meeting worked up a lot more then I should have been and not really understanding why I let my self get this way. But I do and I realize that I am doing this to myself.
Pink Lips is stressed. Work for her is just hellishly busy. She has so much responsibility and everyone wants a piece of her (not in that way either). I wish I could make it better for her. The only thing I can offer up is that the kids and I will be ok while she is gone. I’ll, hopefully, have a lot more done on the house. She’ll do well at the class and it will be back to normal a couple of weeks after she gets back.
On top of all of this the whirlwind is back. I have all this time during the day to think about things and can’t focus. Let myself get swept up in the irritation of the moment dose not help. I am finding that this dose. I really need to focus on writing more. I need to retype some of my old works to get an electronic copy of them. I can’t get this song out of m head, “Vicarious” by Tool. It is so deep heavy that you want to feel it more then listen to it. It is that rush that I have had before Beltane, that bigger then life feeling. The lyrics are dark slightly twist in how it looking at the world but laced with the truth. This welling up of want to create something. Something that can reach up and rip open their chest reach in and touch their souls. To just some how share this feeling to show them the pictures in my mind to let them feel the passion pain love and despair. Open and show them the world that inside, beyond here, feel the ability to dream things real.
I tiled the bathroom counter tonight and laid the backer board for the entry ways up stairs and down. |
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| Pink Lips thinks it is me!!! |
[Jun. 1st, 2006|09:41 pm] |
Your results:
You are Mace Windu
| Mace Windu |
| 76% |
| Darth Vader |
| 75% |
| Qui-Gon Jinn |
| 72% |
| Darth Maul |
| 69% |
| Count Dooku |
| 69% |
| Emperor Palpatine |
| 67% |
| Boba Fett |
| 64% |
| Lando Calrissian |
| 63% |
| Obi-Wan Kenobi |
| 62% |
| Han Solo |
| 61% |
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Tall, dark, handsome and hairless.
Others look up to you,
so if you were a little less of a grump,
you'd have more friends.
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(This list displays the top 10 results out of a possible 21 characters)
Click here to take the Star Wars Personality Test
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| Obsessions |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|09:39 pm] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
I have tapped into something and I think that it is making me a little crazy. It is hard to describe the feeling. I have not been able to let go of the ritual. I have been mulling it over a lot. The other thing is I can't stop trying to make the head-piece out of the antlers that Grim gave me. I do have a tendency to be a little obsessive but this is beyond my normal obsession. I just can't let it go. Add that to this odd feeling. It is so odd. I am on edge, almost aggressive but it is not really angry. It is more of looking to banter, a willingness to argue a point, to just spar for lack of a better term. Add in a little horniness and I am crawling the walls. So I guess the best way to describe all this is that I am in rut. Must have gotten myself a little too in touch with the stag. I just want be in the cool trees, the smell of the damp earth under my feet, the wind drifting through the trees and the sound of water flowing over stone. Long garlands of moss hang from the limbs swaying in the wind. By the gods I want to take her and lay her in the soft moss, holding her and just inhaling the sweet smell of her skin. |
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| I guessed correctly |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|06:54 pm] |
| You Passed 8th Grade Science | 
Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct! |
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| Off the cummune with the Gods |
[Nov. 18th, 2005|01:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sammy Hagar "baby's on Fire" | ] |
Well I am leave to go elk hunting. This will be my 13th year and I have never shot an Elk. I have always viewed this as communing with the Gods. It is just you and nature. So if you know of an entity that would help please put in a good word for me.
Foxx |
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